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fear and loving in motherhood

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“There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.”
― John Lennon

We want to know how we should live. We look for guidance from our elders, signs from the world around us. We find comfort in the familiar and challenge in the unknown. We mindlessly tramp through life almost as if robotic. We tend to forget to focus our teachings inwards. There’s a lot we can take away from the inside out.  We can find our fears, anxieties, visions, and happiness by reflecting on our true selves from within.

As day dips into night, I am sitting at the table sipping tea with a friend. She is telling me about her busy life and the stress that accompanies it. She is mumbled and jumbled and even seems a bit sad. Her mind is running rampant with thoughts. Her face is distraught with the weight of the world lying solely upon her. She shifts uncomfortably on the wooden chair as her bulging belly overpowers her body. She is hunched over and exhausted. She is afraid of the morning. For in the morning her floating ship begins to sink, again. Her husband will leave for work and her two-year-old will triumphantly rule her day. Every minute. Every second. She will wonder what she is doing wrong. How she can possibly handle all of the things being thoughtlessly thrown at her. She is drowning in her own life. Is there a way to make it easier?

I tell her to take a deep breath. I inhale and exhale with her. We do it together, again. And again and again. I ask her if she would have it any other way.

I see a smile suddenly take hold of her. Her eyes brighten and her body perks up. She gently embraces her belly and twitches in delight as she runs her hands over the blossoming life growing inside her. She glimpses down in reflection for a moment and returns with resilient honesty.

Thank you, she says. Maybe this sounds sort of crazy, but my answer is no.

 

Mindful Parenting

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Motherhood is a spiritual practice.  It is a time for reflection and learning, testing and patience, growth and challenge.  Every day, I strive to practice the twelve exercises below.

Everyday Blessings: The Inner Work of Mindful Parenting.

Written by Myla Kabat-Zinn and Jon Kabat-Zinn.

  1. Try to imagine the world from your child’s point of view, purposefully letting go of your own.  Do this every day for at least a few moments to remind you of who this child is and what he or she faces in the world.
  2. Imagine how you appear and sound from your child’s point of view, i.e., having you as a parent today, in this moment.  How might this modify how you carry yourself in your body and in space, how you speak, and what you say?  How do you want to relate to your child in this moment?
  3. Practice seeing your children as perfect just the way they are.  See if you can stay mindful of their sovereignty from moment to moment, and work at accepting them as they are when it is hardest for you to do so.
  4. Be mindful of your expectations of your children and consider whether they are truly in your child’s best interest.  Also, be aware of how you communicate those expectations and how they affect your children.
  5. Practice altruism, putting the needs of your children above your own whenever possible.  Then see if there isn’t some common ground, where your true needs can also be met.  You may be surprised at how much overlap is possible, especially if you are patient and strive for balance.
  6. When you feel lost, or at a loss, remember to stand still and meditate on the whole by bringing your full attention to the situation, to your child, to yourself, to the family.  In doing so, you may go beyond thinking, even good thinking, and perceive intuitively, with the whole of your being, what needs to be done.  If that is not clear in any moment, maybe the best thing is to not do anything until it becomes clearer.  Sometimes it is good to remain silent.
  7. Try embodying silent presence.  This will grow out of both formal and informal mindfulness practice over time if you attend to how you carry yourself and what you project in body, mind, and speech.  Listen carefully.
  8. Learn to live with tension without losing your own balance.  In Zen and the Art of Archery, Herrigel describes how he was taught to stand at the point of highest tension effortlessly without shooting the arrow.  At the right moment, the arrow mysteriously shoots itself.  Practice moving into any moment, however difficult, without trying to change anything and without having to have a particular outcome occur.  Simply bring your full awareness and presence to this moment.  Practice seeing that whatever comes up is “workable” if you are willing to trust your intuition.  Your child needs you to be a center of balance and trustworthiness, a reliable landmark by which he or she can take a bearing within his or her own landscape.  Arrow and target need each other.  They will find each other best through wise attention and patience.
  9. Apologize to your child when you have betrayed a trust in even a little way.  Apologies are healing.  An apology demonstrates that you have thought about a situation and have come to see it more clearly, or perhaps more from your child’s point of view. But be mindful of being “sorry” too often.  It loses its meaning if you are always saying it, making regret into a habit.  Then it can become a way not to take responsibility for your actions.  Cooking in remorse on occasion is a good meditation.  Don’t shut off the stove until the meal is ready.
  10. Every child is special, and every child has special needs.  Each sees in an entirely unique way.  Hold an image of each child in your heart.  Drink in their being, wishing them well.
  11. There are important times when we need to be clear and strong and unequivocal with children.  Let this come as much as possible out of awareness, generosity, and discernment, rather than out of fear, self-righteousness, or the desire to control.  Mindful parenting does not mean being overindulgent, neglectful, or weak; nor does it mean being rigid, domineering, and controlling.
  12. The greatest gift you can give your child is your self.  This means that part of your work as a parent is to keep growing in self-knowledge and awareness.  This ongoing work can be furthered by making a time for quiet contemplation in whatever ways feel comfortable to us.  We only have right now.  Let us use it to its best advantage, for our children’s sake, and for our own.